My Most Costly Mistake

I made lots of mistakes including rolling Dad’s truck, smashing my tractor, getting to drunk and I could go on and on but no mistake was as costly to my life as the mistake of chasing the almighty dollar.

I made lots of mistakes including rolling Dad’s truck, smashing my tractor, the immaturity of getting to drunk and so on….. I could go on and on about my mistakes but no mistake was as costly to my life as the mistake of chasing the almighty dollar.

Chasing money was a poor substitute for my youthful simple life that I genuinely loved. With great Illusions of a grandiose life, this country bumpkin left simplicity and went down the road to a stressful career in information systems where I met face to face with office politics, and the unrealistic expectation of a deceitful large corporation.

After I had a few years under my belt, reality set in. I knew what it was about and I knew I didn’t want anything to do with it. Sadly, by this time, I felt that I was at a point of no return. I had a family that I was responsible to and I was enslaved to debt and the expectation of the deceived and deceiving people.

Unwisely, I pushed myself to continue which led to hate, stress, anxiety and eventually a complete burn out. I went to the doctors who laced me with pills until I hardly knew my own name. When I awoke from this nightmare, I had no career, a small pension, and big bills.

Totally burnt out, no job, more or less broke and not knowing where I was going in life, I pack my dry bags and headed to the river for a 5 day canoe trip. So burnt out, I even fell asleep in my canoe. I remember awaking with the warm sun shining on me and the water lapping against the side of my boat. This was a beautiful moment…an enlightenment moment which I cannot find words to explain other than it was spawned by Devine providence. As my mind arose from the fog, I became excited about starting a new journey; a new chapter in my life. This was my first clear though I had in nearly 5 years. It was a through or feeling that I will never forget.

I am not saying all corporations are bad or nobody should try to be successful in a large corporate environment. I am saying don’t run yourself into the ground and don’t enslave yourself by racking up to much debt. If you don’t have debt you can just walk away and go do something you enjoy. O… and be certain to find time for a multi-day canoe trip.

Thanks
Ray

2 thoughts on “My Most Costly Mistake”

  1. I have had a similar experience and canoe tripping helped me set my priorities right. It also provided a release from the stresses of a highly responsible job that was taking a toll on both my mental and physical health as well as my family.

    Thanks for sharing,

    Gerald

    1. I don’t believe we are the only ones that stress was killing. On the first fishing days of spring mom would throw away her pills and head to the river. Just goes to show that pills is not a fix, the river is. Happy paddling in 2019.

      Ray

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